The more I try, the more useless my existence seems to be.

I'm...giving up.

I can't write anything. So, I'm giving up for now...unless...some miracle happens.

You'll see a huge shift of depressing shit on my social media. If anything at all. I'm also taking stories down from Inkitt, Royal Road, Tapas, and Archive of Our Own. That's four of the six sites I put my writing on.

...if by some miracle I do put up any ARCs, it'll be really stupid, useless, pointles, parts of things.

I'll keep everyone updated...

Soooo, Pen Pinery changed some stuff up. Trying to stand out is all well and good an' shit, but...Now I want to redo things here. Can I delete or at the very least rename my account??? 😦 Or just delete it? I need a new username (MarQaroll instead of Qaroll).

Sigh. Well, I don't know what I'll do here otherwise. I don't have anything ready to be ARC read...Guess this site isn't for me... 😢

Happy New Year...

'Lo, ev'ryone. Please, please read—well, if you care about my stories in any capacity, that is...

Before I get into it...

Hi, I'm a depressed transmasculine (he/him) coughwannabecough storyteller who uses writing as his medium and am a worldbuilder and writer of over 20 years. I have finished five stories (2 "main", 3 that are parts of larger series) since November 2017.

Despite all of my experience, I suck at writing.

I also suffer greatly from mental illness and disability in the form of severe MDD (going on 17 years diagnosed, baybeee), suicidal ideation, and anxiety on top …

Truly. I do.

'Lo, ev'ryone! I know it's weird to have posts on both Ream and here but that's just some weird thing I unconsciously decided on. Subconsciously. Whichever.

As you can see, I've broken the 22.7k mark on Human and am still...not doing anything for WTMSR or its worldbuilding. Very sad, much disappoint. I thought the latter would be easy but OH WELL. Life sucks. 🙃 I have less than two weeks left and still about 50k words or more to get out. Sigh...

I need to get back to work so! Here's back to work... 🙃🙃