Day 3: Out the window?

It's just the damned third day of April and already my plans may be out the window. 🤦🏾‍♂️

I meant to only worldbuild for my story and world, When the Moon Shines Red and Hallowed Ground. I was really excited for it, too, but. After three days of staring aimlessly at blank documents and sheets of paper, I have come to realize the best way to possibly make any progress with the damned story that is When the Moon Shines Red is to actually attempt to write it. 😕 As in make a draft. Or try to.

...Dammit.

I really am trying to focus on Human, here!!! Why is this happening. 😞 Worldbuild with WTMSR and finish the last goddamned chapters of Human; that was the freaking plan!! 😫

With this, I may have to either not work as hard on Human or—No, I have to focus on Human. For my sake, for Candelabræm's sake. The story is moving about a sentence every day. Wonderful. 🙄 Such great progress!!11 I've been trying to finish this damned thing since 2018. Back in the glorious NaNo days... 😓

Sigh.

What I have so far: WTMSR

What I have so far with the novella is...uh. A bit about the pumpion witches, I guess. I even have a few awesome designs for them made with AI. However, I still don't know who among these witches will be the female character of focus (or are they hermaphrodites in a way???) but I am certain I don't want this to be a harem. 99% certain. Even a reverse harem—wait a second. It kind of is. 😳

Jasckiskinny is a twin... 🤦🏾‍♂️

Aw, dammit.

Well, it still isn't a harem to the definition of the word, so there's that...? 😅

Bah.

What I have so far: Human

Uh. Yeah, so. I'm STILL going back and forth between working on the rewrite/version 4 of this damn novel from the beginning (chapter 7, currently) or continuing where I left off in vers. 3.2.6 at chapter 17!!! 😩 Goddammit, I need to MAKE UP MY MIND. I'm wasting too much time working on them both!

Now, if I was smart, which, I note, I'm NOT, I would just upload what I have so far onto Ream and just be done with it, goddammit all. Except. I want people to really have a good experience with Human and I just can't stand the idea of having to re-upload everything from chapter six onward just because I uploaded a shitty version from the jump. 😕

But...I may have to do that anyway. 😞

Any ideas, fellow writers/readers? 😦

As I said.

Plans. Out the window.

Ultimately, what does this mean? It means...I have until the end of this week to really make up my mind about what I'll be doing. So, I'll be kind to myself and give a few days off to figure this focking thing out...

Ugh. Being kind to myself. 🤢

DisGOSTing. 🤮

Oh, and on the side...

I noticed a Boogeyman romance/erotica story on Ream! It is completely different...and more...contemporary?...than mine (title: Boogeyman (I know, so original) but...I'm following it. I want to see where it goes! 😀